So Much Has Happened

So much has happened in my life since my last post. I returned to work on April 20th on reduced schedule  just 15 hrs a week. On April 23 I got my walking papers yup I was laid off after being out for 14 weeks recovering from back surgery. At first I was relieved as I hated my job and have been looking for another job. While I was at my mothers the following three days celebrating my birthday (yeah laid off as a birthday gift wicked huh) it sank in and I had a full on meltdown . All I have to add to my meltdown is my Mum is the best mother anyone could have. Flash forward 24 days and I have just accepted a new job as a manager at a national shoe store chain. The pay and benefits are better and I'll be back in fashion retail sales management where I belong. I'm looking forward to starting my new job relatively pain free now thanks to a fabulous neurosurgeon and getting on with my life again. I feel for the first time in over three years that the storm is finally clearing and the sun is going to shin brightly on me (I better put my sunscreen on) Stay tuned for more.

Returning to Work

I'l be returning to work tomorrow 4/20/15. This past week leading up to it I have been very stressed.I seem to have fallen back into my old bad eating habits and my insomnia has returned with a vengeance. The overeating I will get in control quickly but the insomnia I have no control over. I was hoping to have moved a bit more forward to finding a new job but no luck, Tomorrow I will return to work just 10-15 hours a week for the next 6 weeks and will increase up from there as the weeks go by. I will continue to seek employment elsewhere and will do my best to make it through every day at my current job. Change will come and it will be grand. On a positive note my nerve pain is dissipating, I'm walking much better and I'm 30lbs lighter so my healing ins on schedule.

         

Yesterday was a Yuck day. As some may know while I was away having surgery and recovering at my Mum's house I had my apartment repainted. The work was done for me by my friends/landlords. I just this week got everything put back in order and was just completing hanging my artwork. So the insurance adjuster came by yesterday to look at the two wet/now dry spots on the ceilings in my living and dining rooms. Like everyone else roof leaks from all the snow. I thought no big deal some paint or something, nope not that simple. The insurance adjuster approved total ceiling, crown molding replacement and wall and ceiling repainting. So in about two months my home is going to be a shit show. I know 1st world problems but shit just never goes my way anymore. On the upside my friends/landlords said they would buy me chandeliers for my dining room and hallway to make up for the inconvenience. They pay I get to go and pick them out. This is something I've wanted to have done for 15 years. On the really upside I sucked off two "straight" guys in a pub bathroom stall at the same time last night, so really yesterday wasn't all bad

Today Was A Bad Recovery Day

     So today and yesterday have been the most uncomfortable recovery days for me since my surgery.  I've been reducing my narcotic pain relievers and my back is quite pain free. My nerve pain down my left leg and foot has been awful. My surgeon did tell me my nerve pain would be bad even worse for quite sometime after my surgery. I haven't been able to sleep(no big deal insomniac here) but when in pain it's the worst.I also haven't been able to sit, stand or lie down for more than 2 hours at a time and my left foot not just my toes is completely numb. So today after suffering all day yesterday I decided to take a few extra oxy so I could at least be mind and body numb even if they don't work on the nerve pain. The issue is I'm so afraid I'm going to lose the use of my left foot to what they call flop foot. My right leg already doesn't work properly from my original injury which has led me to where I am now.
     On a positive note I have gotten back into eating Vegan again I had slipped and was eating dairy and some egg. I feel healthier and I've lost 20lbs since my surgery. I am looking forward to getting back to the gym and getting the rest of these 70+lbs off my body that I gained while I was recovering from my leg injury.
     The photo I've included is how I'm going to be getting around if I end up in a wheelchair.

I Survived Surgery

It's been ten days since I had my back surgery and am here to tell that I survived. The day of my surgery when I woke up I actually felt worse. I had extremely horrific(like 10 times worse) nerve pain down both my legs into my feet not just my left one. I finally got to see my surgeon the next day and he ensured me that the surgery went exactly as planned and the nerve pain would go away after 2-4 weeks. The cause of the pain was due to the excessive amount on handling of the nerve to get it into place and it was inflamed I am on massive amounts of nerve and standard pain relievers and I feel like I'm in another world. My spine repair will function at 90% of what it did before and will need more work as the years pass. The nerve damage although fixed and most of the pain will go away 70-8-% the nerve is permanently crushed and will continue to degrade. For now I'm looking forward to a somewhat pain free beginning to my new life,

HNY

Happy New Year to everyone enjoy your day off today if you aren't working. Just fourteen days until my back surgery. I can't lie
I'm a bit scared because of the nerve work they will be doing but the pain relief will be welcome.

I'll be having back surgery January 14, 2015. I think I'll start blogging my progress as I will be making many changes throughout 2015.